Archive | May, 2011

Change

17 May

Well moments after I submitted my last post I was reminded that life doesn’t always go as planned.  Thanks to some good friends I was reminded that this is just a small ripple in the bigger picture.

“All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.”

Anatole France

Hello Mr. Postman

12 May

So i am on the edge of my seat waiting for the mail to come.  No i’m not expecting a love letter from  overseas.  I’m waiting on my acceptance letter to take this dreaded test!  Manic studying to trying to ensure that when asked a question like:

What’s the O2 saturation in the Pulmonary Veins, I don’t panic and mark 75%, knowing full well that the Pulmonary Veins are the only veins carrying the highest percent of oxygen at 98%.

So I am feeling good, and anxious.  I think that I am at least going to pass the test which is really in the end all that matters.  But my letter isn’t  here yet! Grrrrrrrr!!!  So i continue to study, and I continue to wait, much to my dismay.  I hope that my next post will be a victory post with all of my test expoits of how I conquered the beast! Alas my life has become so anticlimactic!  Well 2012 is my year to be more playful!

P.S.  I was quite ecstatic when I was thinking last night.  Did you realize that we are two weeks away for June, which means that half of the year is over, which means I’m closer to being done with this academic kamikaze stunt i’m trying to pull! Woot WOot!

Knee DeeP

1 May

Well it’s been a month now and i’m knee deep into embryology.  I tell myself, “only 8 more months!”  to kind of get myself along, and out of the, “this is torture!” mindset.  But I am literally pushing myself to the limit of myself everyday.  Pushing myself mentally, physically, and well i guess that also encompasses emotionally, since it often begs the question, “can i really do this?”, or after scanning an uncooperative toddler, “do i really want to do this?”  with that being said, I heard a stat that said that going on a diet is mentally similar to torture, because you are trying to change a habit (and habits aren’t changed so easily).  I’d imagine that is the same for forming new thought patterns.

Perhaps I am a bit melodramatic, I mean really it’s only 8 more months, many people have endured much worse for much longer!!!  Well again something else I tell myself to get me along.

And maybe it’s also that i’m trying to work on taking 2 other tests at the same time that’s also adding to my feelings of academic suicide.  But as a wise person once said, “this too shall pass, nothing lasts forever”, so I will take each day as it comes and hope that one day I can use my education to help someone little!